Tue Life: I'm Not Bloggeresque

To Be Honest the "blogger" aesthetic is mundane and repetitive. I come from a creative standpoint wanting to curate in an artistic manner. Yet somehow I get stuck in conveying my message. In which can ultimately lead me to not follow my artistic intuition. For the blog organizations will not repost and the blogger community won't like or share. 

The editing and style in which pictures are taken are the same. How does one stand out in a highly competitive field? This is where thoughts of conforming and giving in to this real blogger lifestyle comes from. I dislike the idea of blending in. Yet I stand out even if my following is under one thousand. Staying true to my personal style has always been  my number one goal. How can I reach those on the other side of the world and across the US if many want to see cups of latte or tea, street photos, designer everything, white feed, and overly compensated products? I am not wealthy and I don't portray that on my social platforms. I portray my quality in the best way I know how. I'm tired of this feeling of not being "bloggeresque" enough. 

I'm not artsy enough or fake deep, I enjoy mixed media arts but rarely show that, I am afrocentric and soulful yet alternative with a grunge and edgy tone. I am not a visual artist, so my concepts aren't as astounding like the rest. I love editorial and writing, yet representation for a girl like me is lacking. Trying to fit in these places in cyber space reminds me of highschool How i was never cool but always different. I didn't have many friends, i interacted with a select few. I am choosy and moody, hence why I post so many inspos on my feed. They all represent me in some way, shape or form. I travel when I can, let's just say I don't document properly. 

Here I am not apart of any collective as I support many, I am trying to find the areas in which I fit in. Minimalism is cool but I sometimes like to get gaudy and add flavors to the mix. Being modest is okay but not when I'm in control of what I want to wear and want to expose a bit of skin. Now style is important to me but not as much as activism and representation is. The modeling world is daunting and seems glamorous, yet it's another flawed industry that hides the innocence behind a glam squad and a photographer. 

I try to be vocal, yet I think my voice is small in the world full of billions of people. Contrary to belief I want it all yet I am stuck trying to  find my niche and perfect my craft. I have no circle, it's just me and God. We are in this together. Alone as always. Confessions of a girl who deems herself not "bloggeresque."

DAZED & CONFUSED 

It's 2017 they all say and I am stuck trying to find my market, my field, my niche, my "aesthetic". I talk about building your own platform and creating your own reality. All things are easier said than done. ACultural Mesh is seeking Mentorship and Internships in 2017.