Turn That Summer Time Kaftan Autumn Denim Story

October 2, 2016

On this day vow to not be a statistic. I vow to break the family curse. On this day I vow to love me wholeheartedly. I vow to always just be Desiree D, the one and only Neferdede. When you're numb. It's because it is something you're used to. Something that repeats itself. We all make mistakes in life. Yet it is how you get through it. How you overcome that defines your character. The circumstances of life should never break you down but rather you learn from them and build up. I am tired of felling alone. I am tired of conforming to other's standards and stereotypes of who I am. I am tired of all of the slander and embarrassment. I am ready to move away mentally. They say face reality. I say my passion is my reality. He nor she does not understand the type of person I am. However as I conjure up a master plan, I quickly run to God. For he holds the future. For Christ knows my heart. The times I felt empty, lonely, depressed and stagnant I tried to fill myself up with false hopes of love. Fantasizing about the what ifs, dreaming about the maybe, or the perhaps. Unfortunate happenings. In present day I am fortunate enough to understand that God is love. God fills the void. God was the answer I was seeking all along.